Choices

Writing is not my thing, I can speak, present and inform more than writing. I have no passion, nothing at all, I want to help people, want to feel free, want to do something good for the world, and for me. Maybe in the conference, I did well, or even get some congrats for a work that I didn’t even expect was that good, but is it the thing that I want to do with my life? Am I happy with being good at a lot of things that there aren’t many people who get them or have them? Do I have to say “Hamdolillah” and move on? Is that all? Am I satisfied? I can’t tell. What are the choices that I have? Which decision I have to take? It’s all about “Having to” which means obligations, and it’s not a choice here, and then how are you going to feel free and you have an obligation even in making a choice. Is it fair? I don’t know.

I have a lot of questions without answers, I can think, I can see almost all the possibilities, Can I decide? I’m only human after all. And if I’m an artificial intelligence, I need a developer to implement my software. Am I the most intelligent or my developer? I can decide after all but how much time that could take? Maybe NASA will borrow me its computers. But still not enough, if I was me, I would say if you can’t so don’t, you will just suffer, waste your time and your energy. But it’s a life change, if you don’t, you will not do anything, that means no money for your future life, no living, so it’s better dying than being a trait.

Now, fields of thoughts in my mind, regrouped each in one title, conference, Tetouan, Reskin, Research, people’s mindset, LIFE, passion, relationships, stress, goals, traveling, opportunities, information, computer science, humans. All of these, got me think, will I die thinking? Am I wrong about what I am doing? Have I to change something? What do I need? And what should I do?

To get out from all of this, be your AI, be YOU. Every system is based on an algorithm, and that means a step by step tasks to be executed, so get it slowly, you were wasting your time, now use it, to execute those tasks, nothing is easy and nothing is difficult, it is only a mindset and an ALGORITHM after all.
NOW, be your own developer and get up, find your way because no one is going to do it at your place. YOU ARE YOU and YOU ARE ME, LET’S BE OUR LIFE MAKERS.